Saturday, July 5, 2008

Am I a "Tween" again?

You see "tween" is supposed to be a word that describes people that are between the a ages of childhood and teenager. It is for the people who are neither kids or teens. But more and more everyday I feel like I am a "tween", in between Yound Adult and "Grown". I don't really want to be grown but I do want the benefits like stability, money, a good job. On the other hand I want to be a "Young" Adult living life to the fullest, going out with friends, and feeling/being happy and free. The only problem is I don't feel any of these things lately.
Since we have moved, though it was a smart decision for our future, it has been kind of lonely. We have made church friends and we have family here but it hasn't felt the same leaving all that we know of our day to day life and becoming phone pals and or myspace pals to our best friends and companions.
The reason I bring up being a tween is because in Anaheim the friends we hung out with were living a common life with us. Common meaning we have it in common not that our lives are just common. We all worked, but didn't really have careers, some of us were in school, some of us married and some with kids. But our closest knit group had fun together, we enojoyed the same things, we hung out almost every day/night and I never felt out of place or like I didn't have something to say when we were together.
The places that we go now and the people that we are with most often are amazing people and the main thing we have in common is our faith (awesome) but we just don't seem to quite fit. The married couples, even if they are young, have like 3 or more kids and most have their own houses already and are in their "niche" as they say. I am not envious of their lives but I am not in their place yet. I don't wish to be yet but I do want to fit somewhere.
Ricky and I don't have kids and we don't really have any friends here yet that we can just go hang out with at any time. I know it will probably be different when we get into our own place out here. I know it will be somewhat different because we can invite people over and do our own thing whenever we want. So I know it will help but I am still missing the place that we fit into with our dearest of friends. Can't you all just move our to Bakersfield and we can all buy houses and go to Church together and float down the Kern together on inner tubes and swim all through the summer. I just miss you all.

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